Thursday, November 20, 2008

two thoughts

Thought # 1
I would like to say that I have been thouroughly enjoying my husband lately. :)
especially his sense of humor. Below is starbucks warrior. I sincerely wonder what everyone else does without him. 






Our journey together so far has been incredible. I have grown more in six months than I ever thought possible. 

p.s. thanks for the photos jess. <3


Thought #2

I have some pretty incredible friends. God has been so good to me. I couldn't think of anything better he could bless me with right now. I have some incredible relationships. My mind has been wandering a lot to people in general. My desire is to love above everything else. Before a job, before stuff, before MY needs, before anger, before selfishness, before "needing space", Before serving. a love that is NOT conditional on who people are, or what they have done. I want to also love fully, understanding that everything I do effects someone else somehow.  My prayer is that God will teach me how to do this more and more radically everyday. For if I do not have love I am only a resounding gong or clanging cymbal. 

Saturday, November 15, 2008

Will the real followers of Jesus please stand up?

(I preface all of this in saying... THERE ARE EXCEPTIONS... I am very much speaking generally and not pointing a finger at any certain organization or person. I am guilty of not acting Christ like as well. I will also say that there are less people that I see as genuine followers of Jesus, and more that I see as Christians.)
In the past few years I have been continually let down by the "church". I can imagine that I am not alone in feeling this way. I have come to know  Christs character, and have come to the realization that His character is very rarely found amidst "Christians". I have seen those who call themselves Christians (followers of Jesus) use, judge, and manipulate people in a way that is selfish and arrogant. This is disgusting. The thought of this makes me sick. How dare we in the name of Jesus Christ knowingly treat other people bad? However on one hand we all make mistakes, we all struggle with a sin nature. That is one thing. What I am talking about is long time "Christians" stepping on other people to get what they want (power, money, control, "successful ministry", the list goes on in on). Looking at "the church" today compared to the character of Christ and the church of acts ... WOW. It is so perverted, what have we done?

 The trinity that I have experienced and fell in love with is faithful, self sacrificing, humble, full of grace and second chances, loving, and honest. No part of the trinity esteems itself amongst the others, and they are constantly pouring themselves fully and freely into each other, out of the understanding that they are nothing with out the other, so they must be all that they can be to each other. This is (for lack of a better term) constructive community. We are made in the image of God. Let US (trinity/God) make man in OUR own image. It is in our very DNA to give freely and fully to one another aka be a fully functioning community of believers. 

The Church has come along way. In the past 50 years we have had discovered a new spiritual freedom. Having a relationship with God, and hearing Gods voice. Has been pushed more than ever. This is wonderful but not enough. I firmly believe that my generation and the generation to come is being asked to love radically. There is a reformation coming to the church, if we will accept it and we must. 

I challenge you as I will myself to look at the "American church". Compare it to Christs character and the first church. Then completely let yourself think outside the box. How can we as a body take on the attributes of our lord and saviour Jesus Christ and not the attributes of "business America"

Saturday, November 8, 2008

back to the nati

Well we have been home for almost two weeks now. We are currently on the job hunt. It has been easier to find work than we thought, the more challenging part is making sure we are taking the jobs that God has for us. I have a lot of peace. It has been a nice break being home I have been processing the last year and a half, more so though on the past 6 months. 

Being married has been amazing. I am so in love with my husband. There was a point in my life that i never thought this was possible. Apparently it is and I am loving it. Its been really great just in the past week and a half to be able to spend more quality time together and less "stressful/work" time.

Anyways. Im back in Cincinnati. It cold here... kinda. I love it. skyline chili (praise God) 
God is teaching me tons about my experience in the ATL. My two wonderful puppies are asleep on the bed with me right now. soo peaceful. and i am going to sleep.